Courage in the race

In a recent NCAA cross-country championship held in Riverside, California, 123 of the 128 runners missed a turn. 

One competitor, Mike Delcavo, stayed on the 10,000 meter course and began waving for fellow runners to follow him. 

Delcavo was able to convince only four other runners to go with him. 

Asked what his competitors thought of his mid-race decision not to follow the crowd, Delcavo responded, “They thought it was funny that I went the right way.” 

Delcavo was one who ran correctly. 

In the same way, our goal is to run correctly; to finish the race marked out for us by Christ. 

We can rejoice over those who have courage to follow, ignoring the laughter of the crowd. 

As the Apostle Paul said in 2 Timothy 4:7-8 “I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith. Now there is in store for me the crown of righteousness.” 

And to keep your eyes on God you need to consistently meditate God’s Word.

Free Prayer Offer

I just wanted to put the offer out there to pray for anyone that needs prayer. I love to pray so let me know if you have any special prayer requests.

Mathew 18:19
Again I say unto you, That if two of you shall agree on earth as touching any thing that they shall ask, it shall be done for them of my Father which is in heaven.

In my weakness the Lord is my strength

 

I loved this popping up in my FB newsfeed, it obviously reminded me of the Bible verse (also below) and I think its true. I believe that when we arm ourselves with our weakness, the devil flees, because God is then taking over where we leave off. Its by His grace alone.

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2 Corinthians 12:9-11New King James Version (NKJV)

And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

When things don’t go how I plan

Thats how I felt about today.
Things didn’t quite go as I planned them to.
I’ve been doing so super-duper well, however today somehow things got to me a bit.

I think it was triggered at the beginning of the day when I spoke to my parents.
I could “feel” my Dad about to say something that was going to trigger my OCD, so I “cleverly stopped him” … which means I went into avoidance by stopping him elaborate. Naughty me.

One thing that trips me up is the whole “meant to be thing” And that is what Dad was about to waffle on about. He was going to say how it was lucky they had a “accident” early on in their travels because if they didn’t it would have been a much worse disaster later on in their travels. THAT is what upset my OCD brain. It probably would have been alot less hurt if I had just let him finish his waffle. Instead of taking it so personally, and thinking that he was somehow applying it to me, I could have chosen to allow him to feel good about his story. But I didn’t, I shut it out by trying to protect myself.

Then I went on to talk about life here and how I have never regretted moving continents, I said this despite what my OCD might say about it. Because of course it is always going to try and say the opposite is true. So thats all good really – good that I exposed myself.

However it was the waffle from Dad that got me. Dad. I always worry what he is going to say. He’s the type of person that would put his foot in it with me, as he’s a bull in a china shop.

Then I got on the phone to my husband later this evening and we had a semi-argument. Not what I planned, but I was feeling a bit anxious and a bit upset with myself that somehow the squirmy-wormy-ocd wriggled in.

Oh and one more thing, I pressed the search button tonight, so I accidentally was a bit compulsive too. More out of an old habit though that to relieve my obsession.

Anyway, thanks for watching. That was my day. Today I got a little OCD, Relationship OCD that is.

I’m noticing something about OCD

Recently I’ve been taking a real simple approach and responding to any OCD thought with:
“Thats not true”. To be honest its actually stopped the OCD it in its tracks. Because I am essentially giving myself the confidence of coming to the same conclusion that I always end up with after any OCD episode. I’m kinda thinking, well how about I just take the attitude that I always arrive at and slot it in a bit earlier in the process, rather than exhausting myself. So I stopped entertaining the thought.

I started to notice something:
NORMALLY when I get an OCD thought, I quickly jump into the mode of
“trying to proove that the opposite of the thought is true”
ie: the ROCD thought might say
“I don’t find my husband sexy”
Normally I go searching for some sort of evidence that he IS sexy.

Aha! … I realised something. I don’t have to proove myself, I don’t have to proove anything. I just need to see the liar. I don’t have to proove my love for my husband, the list goes on. All I need to do is to not believe the thought. This sounds so subtle but there is actually a huge difference between not believing a lie and trying to proof that the opposite is true of the lie. Because as soon as you try and proove something, you entertain the possibility that the lie is true.

I am a skinny girl okay? So if someone comes along to me and says
“You are kind of chubby”, I would NOT pull up my top and try to proove the opposite … I wouldn’t agonise for hours trying to disprove this lie. I think I would kind of either look blankly at them, think they where pulling the piss or I would say “Um yeah right” (sarcastically of course). I don’t have to proove anything.

I am Relationship OCD sufferer but there are some days that I am free of it, others I am not.

 

My ROCD jar and list update

Just an update to the progress made on my ROCD jar … I can now proudly say I can update my list … alot has been accomplished since I started

RE: My husband said to me that I should have a list of things that “I really WANT to do” PLUS a little money jar…. every time I get the OCD niggles, I do something on that list, and if money is needed, then crack open the jar ….. 🙂 

  1. Finish painting the picket fence white
  2. Paint the outside wall grey (buy grey paint)
  3. High pressure hose the downstairs patio
  4. Fill the boarders of downstairs patio with plum slate (buy the slate + black plastic)
  5. Paint the shed (decide on colours and buy outdoor paint)
  6. Plant the eucalypt tree
  7. Take clippings from mother-in-laws garden (prepare pots and place in greenhouse)
  8. Plant holly bush (from Liz)
  9. Fix in the pond covering and complete the pond!!
  10. Find a little gate for patio
  11. Buy a new arch for downstairs garden

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Inspiration for three tone colours to paint the shed “Beach Hut Style”. But use Grey/Blue’s instead…

OCD, the gut and sauerkraut

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I suffer from OCD, and have done alot of research on the physical aspects so I can tackle it from all angles. Research shows that there is a physical component to OCD. The basal ganglia part of the brain, is the area that is notably disrupted for those who suffer from OCD. Also what is interesting, is that there are reports that the onset of OCD is often triggered by the event of strep throat, AND it has been reported that bad bacteria in tummy is also linked to mental health.

WELL. I seem to have had a very long history of tummy upset, and general digestive upsets. But most notably, just when my body seems to be well again, after a couple of days, I get a slightly ill tummy, bloating in my intestinal track, then diahorrea. Its so frustrating, as I feel like my body is being starved of nutrients.  I am about 5kgs less than I would like to be. Prior to the onset of my OCD, I would actually have the “luxury” of wanting to LOOSE some weight, however it hasn’t been like that in years, now I struggle to put weight on.

Things started to click into place, when I got onto yoghurt probiotics to help settle my stomach, as I got the inkling that maybe it was bad bacteria I was dealing with. This seemed to help on a whole, but still I needed something more. This is when I discovered sauerkraut, it has the same “good bacteria” as the pro-biotics, but with added nutritional benefits. I’ve been eating copious amounts of it, and it seems to have moved the ill feeling in my tummy, and broken down a constant big lump of gas that sits in my upper intestines. The lump of gas in my upper intestines/stomach would actually make a squelching sound when I pushed in and out .. Anyway, its gone. Only downside is I am farting alot (excuse me), but I think this is a good thing, as it is moving everything nasty out of me. Oh and my tummy is feeling great. I have been waking up feeling full of vitality, I don’t normally feel like this!

Halleluliah! I really think this is going to get my body back on track and my body weight back to how it should be. I am going to have my beautiful body back PRAISE GOD!!!!!

I suffer from Relationship OCD which are my hardest days (but not today though). Sauerkraut-in-bowl-010.jpg